Amanda

No. I don't feel I need to turn to prostitution quite yet.

Basically, he offered to shag my brains out to pay off my debts and became quite persistent and irritating. He made it blatantly obvious as to why I was employed and made it obvious to everyone else, when I just wanted to get on with my job! If people want to do that for a living then that's up to them, I'm just not like that. And I felt unsafe in his presence and worrying that he was following me, etc etc, and decided best to do a runner.

This is all getting a bit silly now! Moved back to Gloucestershire again... pervy boss offered to make it worth my while in new position and was quite insistent, so have legged it back to old place. Bit of a cock up all round. Now skint, unemployed and mightly p'ed off.

I did give it a tiny thought, but figured the following: 1. I'd hate myself for ever 2. I have difficulty enough finding men and would probably have to pay them, rather than the other way around 3. My family would disown me 4. I just couldn't pretend to enjoy something that I really didn't want to do. But thank you for the suggestion!

Anyone know if this Paypal thing where you stick 3 quid in someone's paypal account and then somehow people just keep sending you £3's which add up to loads of money? (apparently) If you go to ebay and search for "in 30 days" it comes up and I've heard a bit about it, but just not anyone personally who's actually done it and walked away with a few quid....

I have written stuff about Peter, just not under this thread. I just don't know what to think any more. I can't keep up with the papers, and I suspect 99% of it is total sh*te. This Peter giving up for Kate just annoys me beyond belief. Rehab thing is annoying me. Is he going to go to jail at the end of it? He's turned into a media whore. But I still love him and his music! Say what you like, but he's very talented.

Anyway.... tell me someone how I can get some cash - approx. £2000 immediately. All avenues e.g. credit cards, loans etc are exhausted and I need about £2000 to get self back on the straight on narrow. Moving to Wales has managed to get me into a situation that I could never have predicted (& I feel I've been set up) & I need to get away from here & fast. Tried the lottery, can't increase my credit card limits, cannot extend my loan until 2nd April, family and friends cannot come up with that kind of wedge and I'd also have to explain to them what was going on ... so ideas please. And fast if you wouldn't mind. Thank you. P.s. I am being rational re: previous message.... just things have got bad.

And I'm not sane?! Why on earth not? I've not been institutionalised ever, I can function pretty well with all the knockbacks thrown at me, there are no voices in my head, I act vaguely rationally, I, I, I, I ... I'm bloody damn bloody offended!

Forgot to sign in sorry!

One more .... what does IYG stand for please? I'm sure it's really obvious and you're all laughing, but I'm tired. Thank you so much.

Sorrrrrrry - just another quickie re: PD.... One paper says he and Kate are to marry in the summer! One paper says Kate has dumped him! Which, if any to believe? Am worried for PD if this is true though, because he's always maintained that he's only doing this rehab for Kate and their future together (sod all his family and friends and fans who've known him for more than a few weeks!). I hope he doesn't just think sod-it and go off the rails. But then if the papers are to believed also, this rehab is one of the conditions of his bail?? But then everyone I talk to says that he's going to jail anyway and then he'll get better drugs in there etc etc etc. How do people get drugs into jail? (Don't worry, I don't intend to visit anyone to deliver drugs.) Is it visitors who bring them in? Wouldn't the sniffer dogs sniff 'em out? And if the drugs are in intimate places, how do they get them out and hand them over without being seen? Or is it the guards who bring them in? Or what? From what I know of prison, which is sod-all and basically what I've read in the papers, it sounds a very corrupt place.

I wonder if you could please expland on this! IS everyone acting strangely? I'm sorry if that's the case....

Thank you! It was pretty crap! Hate being the new girl and nobody really wanted to take responsibility in giving me any work, which isn't such a bad thing, but like to keep brain active. Maybe tomorrow will be better? This is what happens when you do things spontaneously and up-sticks within 24 hours of having the idea. And seeing as this job was given to me without actually being interviewed (because my sister works here) then I suppose I've done pretty well. Keeps me out of the dole queue! Novelty of living here is kind of wearing off though as living with sis and boyfriend at mo, and am very much the gooseberry - particularly given that today is the day of lurrrrrrrvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeeeee. Oh well, gonna nip out and buy myself some heart shaped chocs and some pink champagne (or maybe some smarties and a bottle of £3.99 pink wine!). Bye for now!

Hi! I have located a PC (I've been on here all over the weekend!), but given it was 1st day at work I thought I should at least pretend that I have no interest in the internet, other than for work related purposes. And how did it go? OK and boring and knackered now. And a little disappointed as no valentine's cards this a.m. though keep telling myself it's because nobody knows I'm here! Noticed Seth Armstrong died.... he seemed a nice bloke. Anyway, I'm going to check out Amanda's Avatar to see if there's anything new. Bye for now! Ps. Speaking of PD did anyone see those pictures of him in the papers yesterday? Not good. Here Kate Moss has dumped him again... but who knows.

Tell me how!

Yeah it was pretty bloody nasty, though there were a couple of amusing things. I really want to discuss what I saw, but it's not really a top discussion topic is it? Let's talk about something good! Thank you for your good luck wishes!

I will! 2 days too late though....

Anyone ever looked at www.snuffx.com? I was recommended by a friend (???) on my pursuit for something amusing. And I just want to know - are the executions in the Execution section real? Can they really show that? Or are they staged exuctions? Thanks

Very possible, surely?

Calm down calm down. Did my oil and water today. Had to get a hammer to the water cap just to get it undone. That's about the highlight of my day to be honest. Very tired. Gonna have a little sleep.

Glittering... politics... media... do they go together? Wales is treatin' me good! Am drunk. And eaten too much. And it's raining. But it's good!!!! Peter D ... is he gonna be detoxed and then go to jail? No no no I hope. I worry for him. Why's Ms Moss buggering off to New York???? "Stand By Your Man" Damn supermodels Damn wine. Can feel my hangover already. Damn my frigging car for overheating and being generally annoying and expensive. Damn it damn it I say. Nighty night, kissy kissy my sweets, xxxxxxxxx

Bugger. Would it get better if I had no-one in the back ever? Bugger arse bugger. Champagne due to leaving England and now in Wales. And how is Wales? Treating me good! Had nice food, drinks, good company etc! And I HAVE EMAIL! Bloody great!!!!!!!!!! Been a long day, car threatened to blow up a few times on the way over, but we're still here.... keep you all (who-ever's interested) tomorrow. Bye, kissy kissy xxxxxxxx

My computer won't let me see that piccie very well... what is it? Looks suspiciously like an Orange Aero.......?

Blimey... stunned.

God know! Am trying to concern self with packing my stuff up, but there's so much to do I just keep wandering about picking things up, putting them down, drinking herbal tea, smoking, picking stuff up, putting it down, drinking herbal tea, smoking.... Used to dislike those people who pay removal companies to come in and pack their every last belonging up so that you can just get out of bed and then walk straight into your new home, but now I rather rate that service. Oh if only to have the money.... But then I'd quite like a cook, cleaner, chauffeur, groom/kennel hand, personal trainer, hairdresser, someone to hang clothes back on the hangers and to open jars, remove spiders etc etc etc.